She layered my bangs when I started to fiddle with them. I had to stop her before she did the whole thing like that. Even though it's in style, it would of been hell for me.

I hate it. She gave me a prep cut. Took away my ability to do an awesome head bang. Grr. She cut off 2-3 inches more than need to get off the dead ends. So I know have my midback level hair. Only 3 inches past my shoulders! Grrieness. She also used a straightner. A waste of everyones time. Not ONLY is my hair naturally stick straight, she took the foof out! My hair might of been silky and flowing, but it was flattened. Hanging limp, was what it was. I prefer my fizzy stringy mess over what I had.

Spring break is over.

I went to the Billy Joel concert on Friday. I thought I would absolutly hate it because the only songs that I knew were by him were old person I-love-you songs. The slow kind you can't even sing to without running out of breath after every syllable. But then half way through the roadie sang Highway to Hell awesomely. Then Billy Joel sang songs that people actually knew. I was listening to one on my radio on the way there and didn't know. At the end everyone took out their cell phones as lighters.

Then last night I went to watch the Cleveland 100 at Peabodies with Maddie. THAT PLACE WAS FUCKIN AWESOME!!!! You had to scream in someones ear to be faintly heard over the bands (4 stages). And eveyone was either a preppy slut flirting with the emo bands singers or emo/punk/goth/with dark attire. And it was bar. My mom called it "my first bar experiance". Eh-heh, yeah.  Sure, first. But she said that infront of the (not used) stripper poll.

But what do you know, MotherGoose was experiencing turbulence on the  way home and it broke in my bag.





When this popped up I started laughing my head off. Im probably bipolar.

Very emo, eh?

I hate gym. My entire class is all the "OMG IM A LITTLE PRINCESS" or "BECAUSE I WEAR BLACK SOMTIMES NOBODY ELSE SHOULD EVER WEAR IT AGAIN OR THEYRE A POSER" or "I THINK IM PUNK, SO I MUST BE. NEVERMIND THE FACT THAT MY GIRLFRIEND IS A RICH SPOILED BRAT WHO WEARS PINK AND I HATE PUNK ROCK BUT LOVE HIPHOP". I hate them.

But I do have Seppie and Katie and Autumn and Chelsea. But I also have Amanda, Cayla, and Lashelle. Since none of them have any friends of their own, they think that we want to talk to them. I wish I had Autumns boldness to slap Cayla almost every day. I also hate Lyndsi and Rachel and that whole lunch table. I thank God theyre not in my gym class. But Im atheist, so see how that'll work out for me.

But anywhoo, when the 3 talk to us, that makes others feel embarrassed to talk to someone who stood near them. So they are directly effecting my getting any new friends. Not that I want to be their friends.

I wish I was in Brittanys gym class. I could replace Christie.

I spent most of today and yesterday curled up in my black and purple blanket in front of the computer reading romance and comdedy stories.

Ive waisted my Thanksgiving break being sick and stuff. I could barely breath and blew my nose every two seconds.

Its now 11:37 pm. About 10 minutes ago I decided I wanted some hot chocolate. So TADA! I opened up the new French Vanilla kind. But I dont taste a difference.

When I put it in, I thought I was doing somthing wrong. The water all evaporated so poured some more in, not bothering with the microwave. Because I did that, it is now perfect. But I think the whipped cream might of been a bit much.

Then I took my sip, and I got a poetic and lethargic. I got this great poem in my mind sledding with my friends, but it probably wouldnt make since if I wrote. Just one of those things that make sense only to me. So yeah.....

Amerika, Du Hast, Original Prankster, or Self Esteem? 'urry up now, young 'uns.

Or Panic at the Disco. Panic! at the disco is cool too.

Edit ok, so at about 12 somthing am I made the original edit. But I guess it didn't go through. Because I threw up all the hot chocolate and half my dinner. So I made a post saying Im all queasy and it wasn
t worth it and Im going to bed. I could of just ignored this and gone up to bed saying nothing, but you all wouldnt want to miss out on that, huh?

My dad has 6 siblings. They each are married have at least 2 kids. And some of my cousins have kids of their own. And then my moms parents. All together, its about 40 people. Our house is biggest of all of them (my dad is a total nerd but has a great job and ergo is somewhat rich and Im spoiled). So OF COURSE we have everybody at our house for Turkey Day. Only about 35 came though. Still. We had JUST BARELY enough plates. If Taylar was old enough to use a real plate, we wouldnt have enough. Literally. And we could just barely fit everyone in too, even with our 2 new tables.

But what do I care?

My cousins and spent most of the time in the basement. We played Super Smash Bros Melee on the gamecube. I won EVERY GAME. Except that time when they started without me and beat me up and I wasn't able to defend myself. And about 3 sudden death games. But still. We played about literally 50 games. And everyone of my cousins played at least once.

Usually we have enough leftovers to last a week afterwards. But we only have turkey and my moms meat stuffing. And pie. OH MY FUCKIN GOD THAT CINNAMON APPLE PIE WAS HORRIBLY DELICIOUS YESTERDAY. WHOEVER BROUGHT IT, YOU ARE FUCKIN AWESOME. I beleive it was my Aunt Carol.

Anything else? No? Good.

NO WAIT. I'm trying to decide whether I want to change the music to Amerika by Rammstein, Du Hast by Rammstein, or an Offspring song. I know nobody reads this, but if someone does, I need an opinion.

I stayed up till about 2 am last night with my brother. We were playing Ping Pong and and listening to Rammstein.


Ive eaten about 7 lollipops now. Sugar should kick in soon. Bye now.

Yummy.

Ok, ello yall, I dont feel like telling you about stuff soooo....

Yesterday was my brothes birthday, I didn't buy his present until 7 pm that night.

We get today, tommorow, and Friday off. I spent today playing the Sims Pets on gamecube, cleaning the rat cage, and making an honest half-ass attempt to clean my room. But I DID tape up all the candy wrappers on my door.

Oh yeah, I got the Sims Pets for gamecube like two weeks ago.  Now Im addicted. The game isnt that great, but its better than nothin.

Oh, did I say Rachel died? Real sad. I didn't have school that day even though it was a Tuesday. Then I got sick on Wendesday. Yeah. Then I got Stephanie and Sarah. Their still scared of me though.

And that school nurse is a BITCH. On Friday I felt like crap, but my fever wasnt quite high enough. I didnt know, it felt like it was. So I asked if I could call my dad and go home. She screamed her spleen out at me for that. I said spleen because lungs, hearts, and brains are way too overused. But anyways, I was almost in tears from it when I was walking up to my locker to get my bookbag.

And..........Im bored. But I drew this Thanksgiving picture in the notebook I share with Maddie and Brittany. Its a girl hugging a turkey in her lap and glaring at you.

Jeff Bates is insufferable. I had him in my group for the science, and he was arguing with any and everyone about the littlest details. If I ignored him and tried to do my own work, he yelled at me for ignoring him. If I asked how his part was going, he got even louder saying I was too bossy. Eventually I screamed my spleen out at him to shut up, leave us alone, and finish his stuff. I literally said that. Shut up, do your notes, and leave us alone. Didn't work. It made him embarrased since he was a total social reject and the rest of my group was somewhat popular. So he decided to redeem himself in their eyes and scream back at me. He looked like an idiot, doing exactly the opposite of what we all wanted and screamed at him not to do.

• My birthday party
• My family party
• Tuesday
• Wendesday
• Grandparents Day
• The computer
  

My dad finally fixed my computer, so I have all my files back and everything. ^^ Yay. So now I have a bunch of stuff to do with it.

Ok, bday party.... I handed out 20 invitations, but only 15 showed up. It was supposed to be about 5 boys, but only 2 showed up. Brandon and Jake. We had a balloon fight, played pool, played Super Smash Brothers (but Jake beat everyone), played fuseball, and threw Hershey kisses at Jake. Almost all my cards had a cow on them. And when I opened the one from Michelle, all the girls squealed. Since the girls had formed a tight circle around me and had easy access, they all started to rub the fuzzy duck picture until I closed it on their hands. Maddie got me a cow cell phone case, Ally got me a cow piggy bank, Katie gave me a purse thing, and I got a giant eyed penguin thing from Seppie. But when I opened the one from Brandon, everyone shouted out 'Awww!' When I saw it was a jewelry box, I got kinda freaked out. Not because it was a jewelry box, but because all my friends were sitting there wide eyed staring from me to him. It was a circle necklace with sparkly things on the circle.
Then later that night we all played Jail break. When I got out and was all tired, whoever was sitting in my chair I sat on their lap. Then when I was running away from Katie A (alittle 4th grade munchkin) who was it. I turned the corner around the back of my moms car and crashed head on into Brittany. Literally, we were crashed into each other, like how a stupid person hits a wall smack on.......About half way through I gave up on trying to keep my pants up and went inside to change. Then I went about strutting and showing off my 'sexy happy bunny pj pants'. So now imagine me sitting on my backyard with my legs stretched out sitting across from Seppie. My chin was about level with my toes since my yard is inclined and I leaned back on my hands slightly. So I was staring at the sky over my house and my friends running in circles from each other. So I turned to Seppie and said "It's a full moon, I'm in my sexy pj pants, the night couldn't be better'. Of coarse she cracked up and demonstarted for all my friends when they noticed us. Those pink happy bunny pants were thick fleace and about 3 inches too long for me.......When we went back inside, Jake and I battled on Super Smash Bros for who got to keep the title as Princess Peach, since she is both our best character.

It was a fun night.

My mom just came home with pizza hut, so I'm not even going to get started on Maddie and Brittany later that night.

I said that last year when the lens popped out of my sunglass clips and looked like an eye patch.

My updated list of stuff to make an entry about because I'm too lazy to do it as it happens:

• Spirit Week awhile ago/ Pep Rally.
• Cayla's party
• The three day weekend
• The library stuff
• My parents halloween party 
• My birthday party
• The dance
• Halloween
• School

Last Friday I went to the library with Brittany and Katie. We wrote with my spiffy indigo pens all over Brittany's arm and notebooks and folders and school papers. We were supposed to be watching the movie, but just thought 'screw it'. So Brittany and I roamed the video section and left Katie for whatever the hell she was doing. Then we found her, then we sat in the hall. Then she went to her stuff and we were still sitting on the couch messing around/ It was fun at first, but then someone stole Katie's ipod. Everyone execpt her started to freak out. These highschool boys went out to look for it, and the librarians called the cops. We were sitting at the one table the cameras overlooked. So we were sitting in the hallway, we left our stuff on the table, when Katie came and told us. But after that she was really unconcerned. She pretty much ignored the boys who found the case it was in, and the librarians watched the tape to see who threw the case away. It was pretty rude I think.

Now I'm gunna do it about the dance. The dance was that night after the library-thing. I didn't go with anyone, I think it was a waste of time. I won't say who for privacy, but someone had some real drama goin on the whole night. We all kinda talked to her, but she was still freaked out about Whats-his-face. Otherwise there was nothing else interisting. I only wore my hair up, the front down, with a red and black ribbon tied in. I also had red and gold eye shadow on, but that's it. I just wore what I did to school that day.

Then on Saturday, I went up to Grandma and Grandpa's house right after orchestra practise at Baldwin Wallace. I stayed there the whole day, so I didn't have to clean the house. That night was the Halloween party for the old people and stuff. I guess Max went to our neighbors house. But since I left a half hour after I woke up, 11:30, I didn't have to clean up or anything. But now there's glow in the dark skeltons everywhere and black lights in everything and ornage and black stuff and beer bottles everywhere. Or there was, I took some of the stuff down for my party tommorow. It's a BIRTHDAY party, not halloween. So there.

Got 3 topics done. I think I'll go ahead and do Halloween night just for the hell of it. Then I can be done and not have the constinent reminder in the back of my head of how far behind I am with this.

Ok...Halloween. I need to post a piccie of my pumpkin, it's fuckin awesome. But you'll see that when the computer decides to not be dead. I'm on the one that's supposed to be used for recording and shit. But anyways.....Halloween. It's wasn't so great. I went with Maddie and Katie S at Maddie's house. I know I'm 14 and 'too old' for it, but screw you. Candy is yummy. So I wore a black and red ripped up skirt, my black and pink converses, the same hair-do I had at the dance, and ripped up black shirt tied in a knot so my white shirt underneath shows, and a giant black vest with red skulls all over. So I guess I kinda looked like a pirate. I didn't really intend to, because pirates are way too popular since Jack Sparrow and Will Turner. I sometimes might go out of my way too avoid things like that, but o well. Maddie just wore some cat ears and eyeliner whiskers. I don't remember what Katie wore. They were excited about the amount we got, but I wasn't too impressed. Last year Michelle, Meg and I walked around till 8:30 and our feet were falling off. But when we got to Maddie's house, we started to trade, so now I have a million butterfingers and skittles, and put on the movie we made to show Katie.

Finally. So long. Pfft. Tommorow's my party, make another one then.

Things that have happened but I didn't make an entry about yet:

• Spirit Week awhile ago/ Pep Rally.
• Cayla's party
• The three day weekend
• Library last week and just now
• The party tommorow night
• My birthday party
• The dance tonight

So I'll start with spirit week. We did backwards day, 80's day, somthing else, and white day for 8th grade, and blue for 7th.  Then we had the pep rally. I think I screamed. I don't know. But my voice was hurting. 8th grade won, duh. When the band came in, eveyone started to cheer like 10x louder. It's kinda weird to see someone you knew since 2nd grade be cheered like a soldier home from Iraq just because they're holding a trumpet or whatever.

The last day, white day for us, the grades switched teachers. So I had 7th grade teachers. The last entry's title is No title please. That's because I was talking to Jacob and he was showing me a page in a book with a bunch of labels people give each other. There was Prep, and Goth, and Gangster or whatever, and stuff like that. He pointed out about 7 different things he could be labeled as and said he hates being given a title like that. Soo......yeah.

That was on Thursday. 10/13 we got off from school. And that night was Cayla's Halloween party. I didn't dress up, just a black and red ribbon in my hair and alot of eye liner. We did a scavenger hunt, and I was on Michelle, Taylar, and Meg's team. We were running down the street in the middle of the night being scared by dogs who would be chasing us if they could leave their drive way. So we were out of breath running in the middle of the road in pitch black. Fun. We also played Ouiji but nobody would shut up long enough to ask anything. Zack seemed to be an expert, so he did most of everything. Then there was the strobe light. I think that's what it's called. It made everything look like a stop movie and I think I might of walked in slow motion without realizing it. There's more, but owelll.

I'll explain my reasoning for choosing those particular words for the entry title thingy later. So shut up and let me talk.

Damn, almost a month since my last update. My birthday past. Any other year except for last, I would of been jumping all about it. But these two years weren't too excitiing. I suppose I only got excited before was because everyone else was, nobody seemed too concerned so I wasn't. Cause I'm just cool like that  I just had to add that.

But anyways, I really wanted this old original Gamboy game. But instead I got a kickass stereo with alarm clock, 5 cd slots things, clock, two speakers with cords so they can be placed separatly, etc. And I was upset about that. I brought up maybe wanting a new stereo since my Panic at the Disco cd won't play in my old one. But that was the only reason, my old one was just fine. I mean, if I really wanted a new one, I hold be fallin head over heals for it. But I liked my little old sensitive cd reader boombox. I've had it since 4th grade, when my dad found it in the basement for me. I'm too sensitive, moarning over a little shit box because I relied on it before I even liked music. But I also really wanted that game.

To bad I can't remember what else went on since then....

I don't think I've told anyone about Rachel's last vet trip. The man said that she's probably had a stroke, that's why she's leaning to the side. Every night since them, I've told myself to look it up if strokes are lethal and how much longer she has. But I havn't. I don't want to find out if my ratty baby might be dead tommorow.

I guess my parents are rubbing off on me too much now. They don't seem to care about anything much and only get excited about things that I really don't want to do, like violin recitals (I will kill who ever the hell invented those) and all the wrong things. Since my dad had the weird as hell cough thing last year, they seem to want to keep everything simple, stress free, and down right boring. They deemed my birthday party will be next weekend, but I have yet to make the invitations because I don't know what the hell we'll be doing, how many we can invite, etc. Mom said just some pizza and movies, but that will be hell and my friends will regret coming. Katie F is already going to Brittany C's Halloween party that night too. Even though she knew about mine for awhile, just not the details.

Another thing with my parents....they are so hipacritical. Shut up, I didn't spell that right. They never tell us anything until the day of, or simply not at all. Then they yell at my brother and I if we forget to tell the somthing. My mom expects me to tell her every little thing from when I get my period to any minor changes in my life plan. Whereas I didn't know my dad was going in for surgery until a day later when a neighbor brought it up. Another thing, they both seem to procrastinate and conveintantly forget things. My dad still has to fix my stupid goddamn computer so I can quit using Max's and I can use aim and get my saved stuff back. And mom still a shirt of mine to iron on her bedroom floor. It's been there since April. It probably won't fit me anymore.

I promise the next entry will be a tad less personal and more about the events that have happened. There are still alot of things I want to cover. And I need to tell why my wording choice for the title.